Heraldry and grief

My father died just over two years ago. I’m still struggling with it. One thing that helps, however, is making good on the things I know he wanted to sort, but never did.

Over the years my father compiled several folders on Mackworth-Praed family history; including letters, email chains and original documents, as well as his own findings and notes. He also printed every article I ever sent him, and I’m glad he did – much of what is in those folders is no longer available on the Internet.

For over one hundred years, since 1715, the Mackworth-Praed coat of arms were described thus:

Quarterly, 1 and 4, Azure six mullets Argent, three, two and one (Praed); 2 and 3, Per pale indented Sable and Ermine on a chief Gules five crosses pattée Or (Mackworth). Crest: Out of a five-leaved ducal coronet Or a unicorn’s head Argent maned and horned Or.

These are the Arms I grew up with – my father had this very painting on display in our living room, and there was always more than one unicorn motif in our house. I recently learned, however, that the Arms the family had been using since William Mackworth’s (1694-1752) adoption of the name Praed in 1715 were never official – when Herbert Bulkley Mackworth-Praed (1841-1921) was granted a Royal Licence in 1909 to continue to use the name of Praed, there was no mention of Arms. Indeed, as I learned during my recent correspondence with the College of Arms, there is little to suggest that the Praeds were entitled to bear Arms at all.

“Praed of Trevethow in Lelant became extinct, after several descents, by the death of John Praed, Esq. in 1717. He left his estates to William Mackworth, Esq., a younger son of the family of Mackworth, of the Gnoll in Glamorganshire, on condition of his assuming the name of Praed.” – British History Online

Azure six molets argent.
The Arms of the Mackworth baronets of the Gnoll, descended from Herbert Mackworth (1687- 1765), first son of Sir Humphrey Mackworth (1657-1727). I am the descendant of Herbert Mackworth’s younger brother, William Mackworth (1694-1752), who in 1715 combined his surname with that of Praed.

The Arms of my great (x3) grandfather, Winthrop Mackworth-Praed, and of his descendants are pictured below – the same as those granted privately in 1404 to Thomas Mackworth of Derby and to his brother, John. The Arms were granted by John Touchet, lord Audley, for loyal services rendered to the Audley family and for the brothers’ valour at the Battle of Poitiers in 1356:

Per pale indented Sable and Ermine a chevron Gules fretty Or. Crest: A dexter wing per pale dancetté Sable and Ermine
The original Mackworth grant of 1404 was in the possession of the Mackworth baronets of Normanton (Rutland) at the time of the Visitation of Rutland of 1681-82. Source:
https://nltaylor.net/sketchbook/archives/146

One thing my father always planned to do was update the family pedigree. When he died, I re-established contact with the College of Arms and finally did so, even though (as things currently stand) I have no right to pass my inherited Arms on to my children. This is a separate issue, one which I’ve already written to The King, the Prime Minister, my MP, and the College of Arms about. If men can pass Arms on to their children without alteration, and inherit lands and titles, women should be able to, too.

In the meantime, I’ve begun the process of registering the Mackworth-Praed Arms here in Belgium, where inheritance laws are more equal. I feel it’s my responsibility to ensure my children also have the right to enjoy the Mackworth-Praed Arms, or at least enjoy the opportunity to enjoy them; however important they may someday end up finding heraldry or not.

Lastly, my father spent many years wondering if the original 1404 Mackworth grant of arms was still in existence. So I’ve been using The Peerage to track down 9th cousins once removed and ask if anyone happens to know anything about where the 1404 grant might now be. Because it would really be quite lovely to know it’s intact in the world somewhere, and to see it, in memory of my father.

Publication delay – Pendragon

2026 will be a good year for dragons, they said. Someone said. Or perhaps I saw it on TikTok? Dragons of the Chinese zodiac; not actual dragons. The year of the fire horse was meant to be great for us. Professionally. That’s the problem with the internet these days; a lot of shallow statements without the deeper exploration of facts.

Despite my severe lack of professional achievements this year, I am focusing on the wins: first edit of Pendragon done, second edit done, new readers for The Future King series (who have been propelling me through the ball pit that is writing a novel – you know who you are, thank you!), book cover designed – and the realisation that I just need to enjoy this process. I am, after all, attempting to accomplish what I previously accomplished in a timespan of about 5 years in 2 (and now also with children). And, as a more in-depth astrological dive tells me, in the year of the fire horse dragons need to beware of burning out.

At least my current unemployment has given me more time than I otherwise would have had to actually work on Pendragon (despite, of course, the endless job applications). Fuck you, AI. Though perhaps it’s unfair to put all the blame on the thing that the fuckwits say will either be our saviour or our doom; it’s people who are choosing to throw others in the bin for the sake of this new snake oil machine whose sole purpose (as far as I can tell) is to steal words and faces and lives and to fuck the planet and make sure you will never be able to think again at all.

All this is to say that Pendragon is unlikely to be published in what little is left of 2026; I am just starting my next major rewrite (this one will get every scene and chapter “book ready”, and I will also recklessly cut even more words I spent the last two years or so writing). It’s likely to take at least a month and a half, which lands us in November, and then my manuscript will need to go to my beta readers, be edited again, be formatted and proofed… you get it.

Onwards and upwards, as they say. It would be foolish to rush the final stages of the editing process just for the sake of avoiding a 7-year gap between Logres 2 and Pendragon. I apologise, though, to anyone who is eagerly awaiting the next book in The Future King series – you’ll have to wait a little while longer yet. But I can assure you this – when the book does finally come out, I’ll make sure it’s bloody good.

Cover reveal – Pendragon

So I finally got my act together and made the final tweaks on the cover for my upcoming release, Pendragon.

Not to say that the cover is finished. No doubt I’ll fiddle with a few small things when I get to the formatting and publishing stage, but this is what it’s going to look like.

The eye motif of Logres 2 has consumed the white space around the New Moral symbol, and has evolved into the form of a dragon (Pendragon), which is wrapping around the New National eye-cross and consuming the space around it in a storm-like fashion. (Plenty of clues what’s coming up in Pendragon in that alone.)

Every time I think I’m going to do a redesign of my book covers (or pay someone more talented than myself to do it for me) I come right back around to loving them – the simplicity stands out, and is separated from any current book-cover-art trends. I’m not delusional, however – the covers do work better in paperback than on the screen, as the white space is often lost in the white space of the internet, but never mind.

In other news I’m trying to figure out if my (sudden) desire to go and study cosmology is enough to pull me through going back to university to do a physics degree. Plan A, make enough money from writing The Future King series to do it for a living; Plan B, continue it as a hobby and work to pay the bills. The thought of continuing to coast through admin role after admin role for the rest of my working life, however, is no longer so appealing. I saw a MA in cosmology at the KU Leuven which looks AMAZING, and if I’m going to have to work on something other than TFK, then I’d rather it be something related to that. But to do THAT I need a degree in physics, so…

Twenty hours a week around a full time job, children, writing, (and I’d also like to learn to play the piano) sounds a little unachievable. But then I’m already a workaholic for TFK anyway. The idea of learning something completely new to give my arts-and-humanities-leaning brain a workout also sounds appealing to me. (I feel I should mention however that I just about scraped a C in my GCSE maths.)

This week I finally finished editing my first draft of Pendragon, which left me sitting at about 320,000 words. Too fat to publish, and I wasn’t planning to split this volume into two. I’m now butchering it in Pages and slicing whole scenes – last word count was 309,000. I think I can get it to just under 300,000, and then it’ll be another paper edit, and more slicing and streamlining. Whether or not I’ll get Pendragon out later this year, or early next year, is not yet decided. Did I mention I created the cover for Pendragon in a 20-year old version of photoshop on a broken laptop with no keyboard and a dodgy mousepad? Can you tell?

I already know what the cover will look like for the next book in The Future King series, Excalibur (three guesses? It involves a sword).

Thank you to everyone who’s following my writing journey – I hope to have Pendragon released for you soon!